erm....that is a very good improvement..no, i don't dare to say improvement, or progress...i will call that a bless..3 days..wow..yes, one is initiated by me..at least he's there for me..he is there when i need him..and for 3 days..yep, it was absolutely a bless.
going back to hometown to get my baby back...another supposed to be happiness for me..guess i am happy..miss my kancil though - that one is absolutely there when i need it the most.never failed even one single time.and there is so much memory with him.that i might not get with my baby..
mama said i changed..yes, i am.whatever i'm going through now, all the experience taught me to be so tough at moments, and mean at times.impatient definitely. the heart is getting colder.life might not be so unkind but maybe being human i take the good part wrongly and be someone that i don't wish to be.
i know i've hurt so many people with this so called new me. never for a second do i want to be who i am right now. 101% certain that i never wish to turn out to be like this. all the things that happen supposed to make me stronger, better...not like this. i don't have a choice. it all happen too fast. not until mama pointed this out...not until then i realized how worst i've become.
to add into the misery..i quarreled with farid. because of my 'impatienity'(i know there's no such word jenn..it so happen come across me now) farid thought i was mad at him and that make he mad at me as well....trust me, he's the last person that i want to get into trouble with in this company at the moment. well, maybe he didn't know me that well to really know me.guess so...
conclusion for the week...every single things that happen make me realize that i miss the old me..i'm sorry...for hurting those people that i care and loved.
got to go...am waiting for me to send him home.
miss him so much.
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My dear,
ReplyDeletePeople do change, as we all getting older, will surely change by experience. Change to good or bad totally depend on our surrounding. So, if u think you have changed to become bad, dun look at yourself first, look at your surrounding. Don’t blame only yourself, might be that u become like this due to your environment, not because that is what u truly are. And whatever u do in office is not you. I am pretty sure that if its not office, you wont be so. I know u personally and I know its not you. It’s proven that we need to be firm in our working environment so that things can be accomplished. I would say that I just can see your hard work to make ur company success and u r willing to do anything as long as you r satisfied with your progress and work.
Good luck my gal, don’t think too much...just do whatever u think is the best to you at that moment...
luv u alwaz...muaxxxx