ya..aku suka dia..aku suka dia sebab dia lah penawar hati aku..dia lah yang ubatkan hati aku waktu aku sangat dalam kesedihan,waktu aku rasa dah tak ada tak ada kebahagiaan untuk aku..
dia yang temankan malam2 aku bila aku rasa tak boleh tido, bila aku rasa sunyi, bila kenangan datang untuk menyakitkan aku..
aku suka dia sebab dia jadi diri dia sendiri..dia tak pernah berkira..aku tau dia adalah kawan aku..muka dia yang aku bayangkan bila aku tak boleh nak lelap..message2 dia yang aku tunggu..call dia yang aku tunggu..
aku suka dia sebab dengan dia aku boleh cerita apa saja.aku tak payah nak pk nak jadi orang lain, aku hanya jadi diri sendiri..
aku suka dia sebab dia tenangkan hati aku.dia buat aku ingat kebesaran Allah..dia nasihatkan aku bila aku perlukan nasihat dia. dia tegur aku kalau dia rasa aku salah.dia pujuk aku bila dia rasa aku dipijak pijak..dia yakinkan aku bila aku rasa rendah diri..
aku suka dia, sebab dia sentiasa ada effort untuk aku..yang aku tau tak ramai orang boleh buat untuk aku..aku suka sebab ada waktu aku rasa dia manjakan aku, jaga aku, buat aku rasa aku ada dia,buat aku rasa selamat bila aku di tengah tengah rang ramai. dia tak malu bila dia dengan aku.
aku suka dia sbb kesungguhan dia, setiap masa yang dia kongsi dengan aku, masa yang dia sanggup luangkan untuk aku walaupun dia sangat sibuk..aku suka dia sebab dia suka cari aku..
aku suka dia sebab dia buat aku happy, dia buat aku senym balik sorang sorang, dia buat aku rasa ada tempat bergantung balik dalam hidup aku..aku suka dia sebab dia ciptakan kenangan baru untuk aku padamkan kenangan lama.dia buat aku senyum sampai aku rasa nak menangis.
ya, aku suka dia..aku mengaku aku suka dia..dan yang paling mengelirukan lagi, dia mula buat aku sayang dia...lebih dari seorang kawan..dan aku tahu aku perlu hindarkan tu secepat yang boleh sebelum keadaan jadi lebih susah untuk aku..
berikan la aku kekuatan Tuhan ku..walau apa pun yang terjadi, aku tak boleh simpan rasa sayang ni..biarlah jiwa aku merana dan hancur, aku tak mampu utk menyayangi dia lebih dari sepatutnya..aku tak bolehhh...aku betul2 tak boleh...aku tak boleh Ya Allah..buangkanlah perasaan ini sebelum dia jadi daging dalam hati aku..aku tak mau matikan hati aku lagi..aku tak berdaya nak menyayangi orang yang aku tau tak mampu menyayangi aku..aku tak boleh sayang dia..
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p/s: now i remember why i miss him this much............................................................................
Friday, February 27, 2009
i'm still here...
miss my phone already..when finally i've some time to spend here, my phone temporarily 'gone' pulak..i wanted to post some of photos that i manage to take while my trip to melaka..huhu..hopefully can get it back over this weekend while i can still remember to put the photos here.
he asked me to get another phone to replace my phone while it's temporary 'gone'. i said i don't have another phone. still insist me to get a replacement - how people want contact me, how to return my phone, how if..etc..etc..
(what's wrong with him?)
it seems like i'm officially the copywriter for mydin..more stuffs to do but trust me i rather do that than the other stuff..at least writing all those things / research / putting words by words reminds me of what i used to love to do..and most importantly it took off my mind from all the cloudy things.
i still miss him though.. aku tau buat apa nak nangis, buat apa nak pk..he is part of me..he's been there for me all this while. i really miss him. i miss not having him by my side. i miss talking to him, i miss laughing with him. i miss him.
i feel like i'll do anything so that he's back by my side. anything.at the moment. anything.
he asked me to get another phone to replace my phone while it's temporary 'gone'. i said i don't have another phone. still insist me to get a replacement - how people want contact me, how to return my phone, how if..etc..etc..
(what's wrong with him?)
it seems like i'm officially the copywriter for mydin..more stuffs to do but trust me i rather do that than the other stuff..at least writing all those things / research / putting words by words reminds me of what i used to love to do..and most importantly it took off my mind from all the cloudy things.
i still miss him though.. aku tau buat apa nak nangis, buat apa nak pk..he is part of me..he's been there for me all this while. i really miss him. i miss not having him by my side. i miss talking to him, i miss laughing with him. i miss him.
i feel like i'll do anything so that he's back by my side. anything.at the moment. anything.
Monday, February 23, 2009
imissu
out of blue i was asked, 'ape yang min nak dalam life..?' we were otw back home from dinner..yes, dinner.(surprise surprise) and tiba tiba he asked 'ape yang min nak dalam life'..i know what i want in life.i certainly know what i want. but i don't know how to tell him. i don't want to sound pathetic in front of him but i don't feel like not telling him the truth too..tarik nafas, clear my mind, i told him..'sy percaya dalam life kalau kita hepi, mcm mana susah pun life, tapi hati kita senang, lapang, kita akan rasa kuat untuk hidup.kita boleh move on dalam hidup.so sy rasa sy nak tu, sy nak hepi'..weird enough..he didn't comment anything. in fact the conversation stopped there. the conversation about what i want in life just stop.as suddenly as it started. he didn't even elaborate further. erm..weird.very weird.
and i forgot what we talked after that.he sent me straight home as we got melaka trip early morning the next day.
i just realised how much i miss him after that nite.
and i forgot what we talked after that.he sent me straight home as we got melaka trip early morning the next day.
i just realised how much i miss him after that nite.
i wish i'm dead
if i'm dead, i would not create anymore trouble..to a.n.y.o.n.e anymore..i'll be free from this guilty feeling for making others felt so uncomfortable when they are around me..i can stop people seeing a very sad and horrible face walking all over the place. i can stop people from hearing me mourning all the time. i'll more than happy to make other people happy and if this is the only way..i'll be glad.
i'm so tired trying to make other people happy..sacrifice here and there..when there is absolutely NO ONE appreciate it.whereby in the end i'm the one who's accused not appreciating this and that.
i'm glad to be the bad guy here. more than anything.
come whoever has the same feeling with this feeling, please come and tell me that my theory is 100% correct. that i'm better of dead.
i'm so tired trying to make other people happy..sacrifice here and there..when there is absolutely NO ONE appreciate it.whereby in the end i'm the one who's accused not appreciating this and that.
i'm glad to be the bad guy here. more than anything.
come whoever has the same feeling with this feeling, please come and tell me that my theory is 100% correct. that i'm better of dead.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
h.a.t.e
i hate you. so much at the moment. and nothing i can think of at the moment that can make me ever forgive you for every single hurt that u make me feel, and for making me hate you. i hate u. and i will never forgive you for this pain, for the tears, for making me hating u.
what hurts the most...
while doing the normal routine of checking jenn's blog, i found this lyrics that i used to like so much before..but by then i'm not so much influenced by it, simply because i was happy.he was there. but looking through the lyrics again today, with all these feeling, everything seem coming back...i realized the hole is getting bigger, the pain is going stronger,
i don't think i can take another night dreaming of him. i'm tired of crying and trying and keep getting hurt at the end. every nite, there are 2 stages. when i fall asleep because i was very very tired and another stage when i woke up and have to find ways to fall asleep again.
i'm very tired, too tired to handle any of this feeling. i wish i can just let go of everything so that i can move on. i've learnt by heart we can't live in past.i learnt that the worst way. and i'm never going to do that again. ever again. but i'm so tired, so hurt, and i'm missing him the worst way.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do…
i don't think i can take another night dreaming of him. i'm tired of crying and trying and keep getting hurt at the end. every nite, there are 2 stages. when i fall asleep because i was very very tired and another stage when i woke up and have to find ways to fall asleep again.
i'm very tired, too tired to handle any of this feeling. i wish i can just let go of everything so that i can move on. i've learnt by heart we can't live in past.i learnt that the worst way. and i'm never going to do that again. ever again. but i'm so tired, so hurt, and i'm missing him the worst way.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do…
Monday, February 16, 2009
i miss you...
sangat sangat rindu..sangat sangat.when i first started the whole so called 'new life' all over again, i felt very heavy inside. i felt so scared when i woke up, so scared to see the day coming as i don't know how it would turn out at the end. i have so high hope and i was so scared that none of the hope will come as close as 'come true'. but it turns out to be better day by day..it's true you know when people said that when you started to give up, it'll come back to you.
and today i felt heavier than when i first started.the thing is i still have this principle of not hoping. life has taught me a lesson.don't dream to high because i can't stand the pain later. but then suddenly things went back to square 1. i was almost back where i first started and that scare me so much..
orang cakap, setiap yang berlaku ada sebabnya..betul..tapi aku selalu nampak sebab tu when it's too late.
orang cakap every day is a new day. be happy, start your day with a smile. aku nak sangat mcm ni. aku nak nmpk yang baik baik saja.i wanted to see my life as i see my work..yes, i'm very stressed out sebab keja. sangat2 stress.sangat2 penat tapi until certain level, i know exatly where to stop. aku tau bila aku rasa aku tak payah pk lagi sebab it's out of my control, because i can't make every one happy, aku tau mcm mana pun jadi, i have to move on. mungkin sebab tu aku masih ada kat sini sebab aku tau aku masih boleh tahan.
tapi, aku tak nampak life aku mcm tu. no matter how i wanted to stop, life ttp jalan jugak.
i miss you.
and today i felt heavier than when i first started.the thing is i still have this principle of not hoping. life has taught me a lesson.don't dream to high because i can't stand the pain later. but then suddenly things went back to square 1. i was almost back where i first started and that scare me so much..
orang cakap, setiap yang berlaku ada sebabnya..betul..tapi aku selalu nampak sebab tu when it's too late.
orang cakap every day is a new day. be happy, start your day with a smile. aku nak sangat mcm ni. aku nak nmpk yang baik baik saja.i wanted to see my life as i see my work..yes, i'm very stressed out sebab keja. sangat2 stress.sangat2 penat tapi until certain level, i know exatly where to stop. aku tau bila aku rasa aku tak payah pk lagi sebab it's out of my control, because i can't make every one happy, aku tau mcm mana pun jadi, i have to move on. mungkin sebab tu aku masih ada kat sini sebab aku tau aku masih boleh tahan.
tapi, aku tak nampak life aku mcm tu. no matter how i wanted to stop, life ttp jalan jugak.
i miss you.
another day...
sat-feb 14th.
went to OU, enjoy Upin Ipin Movie (how i really had a laugh that day..memang sangat best..a salute to them), had a free cornetto ice cream, did zura's present for her zarma, bought white skirt, a very tiring day as it started even earlier than my normal working day. btw, had a meeting with AA as early as 10 am until 1pm at the office.
sun-feb 15th.
woke up at almost 10am..all the muscles hurt so much especially the on the leg, probably because of a long 'walk' the before or the effect from the fall down. my hand muscle hurt as well but can't see a reason why..head are spinning as well.had lunch on time, felt asleep almost immediately after that woke up with even greater pain on the leg, hand and head. pain also increased in stoamch area.planned to go to giant - maybe the reason i'm so tired is because i'm practically doing nothing..can hardly move my whole body by the time i reached home after giant. can feel the temp started to rise up. lost my appetite, had soup as dinner. felt asleep immediately after (again...) fall asleep while reading my current novel.
mon-feb 16th.
woke up feeling better.(sigh...no sign of getting really sick that can make me take a whole day off...sigh again) and the resume as per normal. (beginning to feel really scared of it)..i almost dread for the next day to appear because it's not getting better..this is how i used to feel before and i don't want to feel the same way again..(sigh..............................................................................)
yes..everyday is a new beginning...(sigh again)
went to OU, enjoy Upin Ipin Movie (how i really had a laugh that day..memang sangat best..a salute to them), had a free cornetto ice cream, did zura's present for her zarma, bought white skirt, a very tiring day as it started even earlier than my normal working day. btw, had a meeting with AA as early as 10 am until 1pm at the office.
sun-feb 15th.
woke up at almost 10am..all the muscles hurt so much especially the on the leg, probably because of a long 'walk' the before or the effect from the fall down. my hand muscle hurt as well but can't see a reason why..head are spinning as well.had lunch on time, felt asleep almost immediately after that woke up with even greater pain on the leg, hand and head. pain also increased in stoamch area.planned to go to giant - maybe the reason i'm so tired is because i'm practically doing nothing..can hardly move my whole body by the time i reached home after giant. can feel the temp started to rise up. lost my appetite, had soup as dinner. felt asleep immediately after (again...) fall asleep while reading my current novel.
mon-feb 16th.
woke up feeling better.(sigh...no sign of getting really sick that can make me take a whole day off...sigh again) and the resume as per normal. (beginning to feel really scared of it)..i almost dread for the next day to appear because it's not getting better..this is how i used to feel before and i don't want to feel the same way again..(sigh..............................................................................)
yes..everyday is a new beginning...(sigh again)
Thursday, February 12, 2009
...
a week of silence...real silence..i wonder how it will work from here..
i alomost can't take this anymore..
i alomost can't take this anymore..
sakit...
first it started with headache...since last monday..should be earlier..because i decided to go to clinic on monday, but the clinic was closed...so, i went on tuesday..the doctor ask me to fix my eyes..how on earth can i do that..?wearing glasses might not help as i've the experience before.it will only increase the pain.i can't stand already la..really..i only took the pain killer and ignore the rest medicine..it helped..so much, but i'm depending too much on the pain killer pulak...but the pain goes and i feel lighter..but i also need to stop listening ti music or too loud noises or else the pain will come again. i stopped taking the pills yesterday. feeling better and so afraid that its finished by the time when i really need it. only four tablets left.
the doctor gave me mc but i know i can't afford that. too much work waiting and summore i know i can still tahan..
yesterday, my hands felt itch all over. the palms are red and scary looking. how to garu your tapak tangan..?u wouldn't know where to garu..there's no sign of red dots anywhere,but i can felt that my hands are not smooth. it started to go numb and worst it started to go to the wrist.could there be bed bug..?hoho.when i'm in calmer state of mind...(so called) the first thought..chicken pox!! a week of mc!! poor me..little that i forgot, i've gotten chicken pox million of years ago and that chicken pox didn't start from your palms...(*sigh)..apparently the itch got better..(of course..i'm turning into a very scary person, even pain and sickness don't want to stick long with me..huhu)it got better at nite..
i left the office myself last nite..feeling less..emotion less..lock the door..went to the lift, pressed B1, went to my car..use the appropriate way as they called, use the stairs..don't know where my mind go, all that i know i was clinging (try to)as hard as i can to the handler to balance myself so that i won't fall down from the stairs.there are another 3 stair case to go..imagine if i can't hold tighly enough, my face sure kena lantai and even my knee pun mesti luka or lebam..but as the result, i hurt my kaki..sat on the stairs for like 10 mins, try to call my friend but not picking up the call.i'm almost scared.i'm alone at the basement.anything can happen and i can't move!!!!
once my nerve start feeling again, i dumbly try to put on my shoes.kaki dah sakit boleh ingat nak pakai kasut.of course i can't, since it hurt so much.
went home, mymy already packed some food home, nursing my poor kaki.slowly it gets swollen...
this morning when i first woke up, it was very painful, i can't walk...fall asleep again and feel better.so here i am still limping, can't walk too fast but the swollen gone. at laest..
first it started with the heart...straight go to the head..back to hand and now the leg...i don't know which one is more painful and when i cried last nite..not sure it came from which pain...
the doctor gave me mc but i know i can't afford that. too much work waiting and summore i know i can still tahan..
yesterday, my hands felt itch all over. the palms are red and scary looking. how to garu your tapak tangan..?u wouldn't know where to garu..there's no sign of red dots anywhere,but i can felt that my hands are not smooth. it started to go numb and worst it started to go to the wrist.could there be bed bug..?hoho.when i'm in calmer state of mind...(so called) the first thought..chicken pox!! a week of mc!! poor me..little that i forgot, i've gotten chicken pox million of years ago and that chicken pox didn't start from your palms...(*sigh)..apparently the itch got better..(of course..i'm turning into a very scary person, even pain and sickness don't want to stick long with me..huhu)it got better at nite..
i left the office myself last nite..feeling less..emotion less..lock the door..went to the lift, pressed B1, went to my car..use the appropriate way as they called, use the stairs..don't know where my mind go, all that i know i was clinging (try to)as hard as i can to the handler to balance myself so that i won't fall down from the stairs.there are another 3 stair case to go..imagine if i can't hold tighly enough, my face sure kena lantai and even my knee pun mesti luka or lebam..but as the result, i hurt my kaki..sat on the stairs for like 10 mins, try to call my friend but not picking up the call.i'm almost scared.i'm alone at the basement.anything can happen and i can't move!!!!
once my nerve start feeling again, i dumbly try to put on my shoes.kaki dah sakit boleh ingat nak pakai kasut.of course i can't, since it hurt so much.
went home, mymy already packed some food home, nursing my poor kaki.slowly it gets swollen...
this morning when i first woke up, it was very painful, i can't walk...fall asleep again and feel better.so here i am still limping, can't walk too fast but the swollen gone. at laest..
first it started with the heart...straight go to the head..back to hand and now the leg...i don't know which one is more painful and when i cried last nite..not sure it came from which pain...
Saturday, February 7, 2009
why?
1. maybe out of sudden the gf find out and was outrageously mad and really can't accept the friendship, scared that i might some day take what she thinks belong to him and demand not / NEVER to see me again personally and if he trully love her, no more question asked, just do what she ask to do.
2. maybe he suddenly realized that he's been spending so much time with me and he himself scared that he might have given me a wrong perspective of what he think about this friendship. he might get cold feet that i might fall in love with him...(for goodness sake!!!! after a whole year now only you think about this..only after a whole damn year?!!! PLEASE...i'm not little kid ok!!!!!)
3. maybe he's terribly bored with me and wanted something new.
4. maybe he just don't like me anymore
5. maybe i've hurt him the worst way
6. maybe he was sick and tired of all the troublesome that i'd give him and he just had enough!
7. maybe he hate me
of all the maybe 's' ...number 7 is the strongest point. you can't just change overnight. you just can't. only if you heart decided to change to hate what u used to like, then everything is possible...u know what..i might hate u too.
2. maybe he suddenly realized that he's been spending so much time with me and he himself scared that he might have given me a wrong perspective of what he think about this friendship. he might get cold feet that i might fall in love with him...(for goodness sake!!!! after a whole year now only you think about this..only after a whole damn year?!!! PLEASE...i'm not little kid ok!!!!!)
3. maybe he's terribly bored with me and wanted something new.
4. maybe he just don't like me anymore
5. maybe i've hurt him the worst way
6. maybe he was sick and tired of all the troublesome that i'd give him and he just had enough!
7. maybe he hate me
of all the maybe 's' ...number 7 is the strongest point. you can't just change overnight. you just can't. only if you heart decided to change to hate what u used to like, then everything is possible...u know what..i might hate u too.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
messy...
tired. mostly on the mental part. very tired in fact. sad. very very sad. and the sadness consume so much energy which link again to the tired part. broken hearted.into very small pieces. bring this to the sad part..again.losing hope, feel like there is no more room for me to breath in where ever i go.
and each and every of this bringing me closer to give up. to give up with my life.
i can't explain the tired part..i seem very normal from the outside, very energetic enough. i can still run here and there even without food...haha.so who would believe that i'm totally flat inside. my mind can still think rationally, it's not like i go and do something stupid to show that my mind isn't working anymore. everything looks make sense enough to every eyes watching..i feel very sick until all i want is to lie down..where i feel like lying down..?somewhere i can here the waves splashing, just by myself and know that i'm going to be better after that. but i look pretty healthy, very healthy..so what is this i'm saying i'm too tired, sick la this la that la..
i know i'm sad. damn sad.i'm losing a friendship..the scariest part, i'm letting it go myself..i'm not fighting for it anymore, i felt so broken hearted until someone can see that i'm letting go when i myself can't see that...i'm really scared of myself..(hmm..seems that i'm pretty insane la..considering my thought above..it's quite obvious actually) i'm letting go and that is totally not me.i'm following the flow, i'm not trying to change it to make it better, i'm not trying to make me happy anymore or at least satisfy what i want. and maybe that's make me sadder..
i'm losing a friendship, one of i love the most..is this means i don't love myself anymore...?
don't want to go to the broken hearted part..it'll just added the pieces..and for sure, i'm losing hope..totally losing hope.
i'm beginning to understand life...at least my life..it's very messy.
i miss u ..i really miss you...i need you for me to know that things will be ok even if it would not.i need you to know at least i'm not alone to go through this hell..
please, whatever i've done i'm sorry. i would not do that again. i just need you
and each and every of this bringing me closer to give up. to give up with my life.
i can't explain the tired part..i seem very normal from the outside, very energetic enough. i can still run here and there even without food...haha.so who would believe that i'm totally flat inside. my mind can still think rationally, it's not like i go and do something stupid to show that my mind isn't working anymore. everything looks make sense enough to every eyes watching..i feel very sick until all i want is to lie down..where i feel like lying down..?somewhere i can here the waves splashing, just by myself and know that i'm going to be better after that. but i look pretty healthy, very healthy..so what is this i'm saying i'm too tired, sick la this la that la..
i know i'm sad. damn sad.i'm losing a friendship..the scariest part, i'm letting it go myself..i'm not fighting for it anymore, i felt so broken hearted until someone can see that i'm letting go when i myself can't see that...i'm really scared of myself..(hmm..seems that i'm pretty insane la..considering my thought above..it's quite obvious actually) i'm letting go and that is totally not me.i'm following the flow, i'm not trying to change it to make it better, i'm not trying to make me happy anymore or at least satisfy what i want. and maybe that's make me sadder..
i'm losing a friendship, one of i love the most..is this means i don't love myself anymore...?
don't want to go to the broken hearted part..it'll just added the pieces..and for sure, i'm losing hope..totally losing hope.
i'm beginning to understand life...at least my life..it's very messy.
i miss u ..i really miss you...i need you for me to know that things will be ok even if it would not.i need you to know at least i'm not alone to go through this hell..
please, whatever i've done i'm sorry. i would not do that again. i just need you
Sunday, February 1, 2009
a beautiful day...
it started when we are still at the office, when i was still very busy running here and there to settle all the issues, before every one started their long chinese new year break..he was signalling to me what time we should make a move that nite and at the moment that was the last thing on my mind..i need to settle all the things fast because i want to go home fast. i'm already too tired and and i have not packed a thing yet..
i was the second last person to leave the office. on my way back, i packed some food home. once i'm home, i ate, rest for a while. mean time, we still can't decide what time we're leaving. he sounded very tired and un well too during the day and i do not feel very good to leave that nite itself. i just told him to get enough rest and just buzz me when he's ready. i took my own sweet time, even fall asleep as i was very very tired..when i woke up, there is still no msg, went to take my bath, and pack up my things. then only i was told that he was already otw and will be reaching my place in 20 mins. i had not perform isyak prayer yet, was undress and still wet in my towel. so typical him!i told him since the sms is very last minute please take your time to wait for me..
he did not look tired at all..he didn't sleep earlier and even though his nose was running rather badly, he still talked non stop. and as for me, as i've taken a nap earlier i do not feel so tired anymore and i already decided never to fall asleep when he is driving..!!as predicted, the highway was jammed by cars who took the same dicision as we did. maybe that's why we didn't really feel sleepy. we were talking all the way, arguing, laughing at people that we know..wow..i never thought that it will go that way but i loved it..every moment of it.
he was driving rather very slowly..because i told him i can't be reaching my friend's house at very early in the morning. so he told me he'll make sure we will reach there by 9am. ok..fine with me..we stopped few places- once because i wanted to drink, after that because he need to go to toilet, and the last time because i told him i need to go to toilet but it wasn't very urgent and i can tahan. he insisted and stopped the car rite in front of the toilet!omg...what choice do i have..after toilet, we stopped to sleep for 2 hours and started again at around 7 in the morning..
we reached penang i think at 9 something. zura was already waiting but suddenly he popped me the question that i never thought he would ask. he wanted to spend sometime in penang (saying that he already pay the toll, but actually i paid the toll..huhu)so okay, i called zura and tell her that we go jalan2 first..i know she would say ok..
it was one of the most beautiful day in my life...we spend the whole day in feringghi beach..just lay there closed our eyes and listen to the beautiful sound of the waves..our mind free from every single pollution from kl..Ya Allah..it was the most beautiful day..and i know i will remember that day forever.being there with him, sharing the day, the moment with him perfect everything up..i know i can't have the same day again but i want to remember that, forever..i love the day so much entirely..
Ya Allah..please..kalau ada kesempatan untukku, izinkan aku lalui hari itu sekali lagi..
i was the second last person to leave the office. on my way back, i packed some food home. once i'm home, i ate, rest for a while. mean time, we still can't decide what time we're leaving. he sounded very tired and un well too during the day and i do not feel very good to leave that nite itself. i just told him to get enough rest and just buzz me when he's ready. i took my own sweet time, even fall asleep as i was very very tired..when i woke up, there is still no msg, went to take my bath, and pack up my things. then only i was told that he was already otw and will be reaching my place in 20 mins. i had not perform isyak prayer yet, was undress and still wet in my towel. so typical him!i told him since the sms is very last minute please take your time to wait for me..
he did not look tired at all..he didn't sleep earlier and even though his nose was running rather badly, he still talked non stop. and as for me, as i've taken a nap earlier i do not feel so tired anymore and i already decided never to fall asleep when he is driving..!!as predicted, the highway was jammed by cars who took the same dicision as we did. maybe that's why we didn't really feel sleepy. we were talking all the way, arguing, laughing at people that we know..wow..i never thought that it will go that way but i loved it..every moment of it.
he was driving rather very slowly..because i told him i can't be reaching my friend's house at very early in the morning. so he told me he'll make sure we will reach there by 9am. ok..fine with me..we stopped few places- once because i wanted to drink, after that because he need to go to toilet, and the last time because i told him i need to go to toilet but it wasn't very urgent and i can tahan. he insisted and stopped the car rite in front of the toilet!omg...what choice do i have..after toilet, we stopped to sleep for 2 hours and started again at around 7 in the morning..
we reached penang i think at 9 something. zura was already waiting but suddenly he popped me the question that i never thought he would ask. he wanted to spend sometime in penang (saying that he already pay the toll, but actually i paid the toll..huhu)so okay, i called zura and tell her that we go jalan2 first..i know she would say ok..
it was one of the most beautiful day in my life...we spend the whole day in feringghi beach..just lay there closed our eyes and listen to the beautiful sound of the waves..our mind free from every single pollution from kl..Ya Allah..it was the most beautiful day..and i know i will remember that day forever.being there with him, sharing the day, the moment with him perfect everything up..i know i can't have the same day again but i want to remember that, forever..i love the day so much entirely..
Ya Allah..please..kalau ada kesempatan untukku, izinkan aku lalui hari itu sekali lagi..
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