sakit...

first it started with headache...since last monday..should be earlier..because i decided to go to clinic on monday, but the clinic was closed...so, i went on tuesday..the doctor ask me to fix my eyes..how on earth can i do that..?wearing glasses might not help as i've the experience before.it will only increase the pain.i can't stand already la..really..i only took the pain killer and ignore the rest medicine..it helped..so much, but i'm depending too much on the pain killer pulak...but the pain goes and i feel lighter..but i also need to stop listening ti music or too loud noises or else the pain will come again. i stopped taking the pills yesterday. feeling better and so afraid that its finished by the time when i really need it. only four tablets left.

the doctor gave me mc but i know i can't afford that. too much work waiting and summore i know i can still tahan..

yesterday, my hands felt itch all over. the palms are red and scary looking. how to garu your tapak tangan..?u wouldn't know where to garu..there's no sign of red dots anywhere,but i can felt that my hands are not smooth. it started to go numb and worst it started to go to the wrist.could there be bed bug..?hoho.when i'm in calmer state of mind...(so called) the first thought..chicken pox!! a week of mc!! poor me..little that i forgot, i've gotten chicken pox million of years ago and that chicken pox didn't start from your palms...(*sigh)..apparently the itch got better..(of course..i'm turning into a very scary person, even pain and sickness don't want to stick long with me..huhu)it got better at nite..

i left the office myself last nite..feeling less..emotion less..lock the door..went to the lift, pressed B1, went to my car..use the appropriate way as they called, use the stairs..don't know where my mind go, all that i know i was clinging (try to)as hard as i can to the handler to balance myself so that i won't fall down from the stairs.there are another 3 stair case to go..imagine if i can't hold tighly enough, my face sure kena lantai and even my knee pun mesti luka or lebam..but as the result, i hurt my kaki..sat on the stairs for like 10 mins, try to call my friend but not picking up the call.i'm almost scared.i'm alone at the basement.anything can happen and i can't move!!!!
once my nerve start feeling again, i dumbly try to put on my shoes.kaki dah sakit boleh ingat nak pakai kasut.of course i can't, since it hurt so much.
went home, mymy already packed some food home, nursing my poor kaki.slowly it gets swollen...

this morning when i first woke up, it was very painful, i can't walk...fall asleep again and feel better.so here i am still limping, can't walk too fast but the swollen gone. at laest..

first it started with the heart...straight go to the head..back to hand and now the leg...i don't know which one is more painful and when i cried last nite..not sure it came from which pain...