sangat sangat rindu..sangat sangat.when i first started the whole so called 'new life' all over again, i felt very heavy inside. i felt so scared when i woke up, so scared to see the day coming as i don't know how it would turn out at the end. i have so high hope and i was so scared that none of the hope will come as close as 'come true'. but it turns out to be better day by day..it's true you know when people said that when you started to give up, it'll come back to you.
and today i felt heavier than when i first started.the thing is i still have this principle of not hoping. life has taught me a lesson.don't dream to high because i can't stand the pain later. but then suddenly things went back to square 1. i was almost back where i first started and that scare me so much..
orang cakap, setiap yang berlaku ada sebabnya..betul..tapi aku selalu nampak sebab tu when it's too late.
orang cakap every day is a new day. be happy, start your day with a smile. aku nak sangat mcm ni. aku nak nmpk yang baik baik saja.i wanted to see my life as i see my work..yes, i'm very stressed out sebab keja. sangat2 stress.sangat2 penat tapi until certain level, i know exatly where to stop. aku tau bila aku rasa aku tak payah pk lagi sebab it's out of my control, because i can't make every one happy, aku tau mcm mana pun jadi, i have to move on. mungkin sebab tu aku masih ada kat sini sebab aku tau aku masih boleh tahan.
tapi, aku tak nampak life aku mcm tu. no matter how i wanted to stop, life ttp jalan jugak.
i miss you.
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